Teresa: Transformation is always a struggle. If everything was always easy and comfortable we would never be driven to change and grow. It is the conflict that hurls us into the place of raw Power, a scary place, where the Great Work really takes place.
We were excited to
re-enter our tantric realm. But when we actually began our new
painting journey we found that everything we added onto this
base layer just obscured the original feeling of it. In our intention
to remain completely open and fresh,we found we were covering
over each other's offerings, and an attitude of antagonism, although
playful, slowly developed. Rather than a collaboration, the
Frustration slowly replaced enthusiasm, and we went to bed with little satisfaction. It was disturbing to both of us, feeling the lack of connection to each other and the Vision.
Dwayne: .In retrospect it is clear that we set ourselves up for conflict and disappointment the moment we primed the canvas. Rather than establishing a monotone base layer upon which to work, we created a subtle, abstract painting in its own right. To the extent that we were attached to that painting, to that extent we experienced pain at its gradual transformation into something other.
In painting as in life, I find a quote from Picasso particularly helpful here:
Teresa: Dreams were fitful that night, but the early waking hours worked their peaceful creative magic on us, and we rose with some fresh insights as to what had happened and what we could do to transform the blocked energy of the previous night.
What I saw in looking
back was that, because of my desire to remain open to what "came
through", I actually became blinded to what Dwayne was seeing.
We were covering up each other's painting because we thought
it was being contrived, or challenging. We